A Message from “The Family”: On Faith and Doubt

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Mister Rand is frequently plagued with concerns that the truths he has clung to for consolation and support he will find, in a shattering moment of terror on his deathbed, to all have been founded upon falsehoods. He is not alone in this fear. Many individuals, when apprised of their forthcoming deaths, return to the religions of their childhoods; or, alternatively, trumpet their atheism, comforting themselves with the certainty that the death of the body is an extinguishment (rather than a damnation or rebirth, as others claim). Mister Rand has always wished to look Death in the eye when that angel finally comes for him, because Mister Rand has feared Death all his life. And so what do these matters tell us about faith and doubt?

Faith and doubt, as we see it, are tools selected unconsciously or consciously by the human soul in order to create certain experiences while in physical reality. For example, when he was a boy, Mister Rand unconsciously elected to side with his agnostic father regarding religion and the divine, because his mother, an alcoholic and pedophile, was a believing Christian according to her lights. Mister Rand wished his father to approve of him, and he wished to detach himself from his mother, particularly as he grew older and her anger towards males became more apparent in her attitudes and actions towards him. But once Mister Rand’s father died, Mister Rand’s need for a context in which to know himself and live his life led Mister Rand to accept Jesus Christ as his personal savior on a beach in New Jersey, as a result of a young man preaching to him from a pamphlet called “The Four Spiritual Laws.”

Returning to the town where he was attending college, Mister Rand got involved with a church where he was welcomed by many, and this gave him a sense of having a family again. He cast himself fully into the practices and doctrines of the church group, even to the point of trying to convince family and friends of the truth of the Christianity he espoused. And yet part of him did not like the sacrifices Mister Rand felt he had to make in order to continue to be accepted by the Christians with whom he was involved; that is to say, his homosexuality, which, as he recovered slowly from the trauma associated with the death of his agnostic father, exerted more and more of a tug upon his bodymind. And so, when he had healed from the greater part of the death trauma around his father, and when Mister Rand had gained the inner strength to once more go out into the world on his own, he began to question some of the teachings of the group with which he was involved. Feeling his faith slipping away, in desperation he sought out an elder of the church and asked this man to mentor him; but the man was homophobic, having lost a wife to her coming out as a Lesbian; and only grudgingly told Mister Rand he would mentor him. And Mister Rand knew his days as a Christian were over.

So Mister Rand [again] embraced the agnosticism of his father. It was an effort to permit himself an expansion of his earthly experiences. Agnosticism, unlike atheism, does not claim certainty of the existence or nonexistence of God/dess; so to Mister Rand unconsciously agnosticism represented a freedom to explore matters of faith and reality and experience that he had not permitted himself before in his life thus far. This period of agnosticism came to an end when Mister Rand’s younger brother discovered the “Seth” channelings of the late Jane Roberts. There awakened in Mister Rand a curiosity to explore spiritual mysticism and the practices of divination known as the Tarot, for deep down he had continued to feel a yearning for certain guidance for his soul. He also wished to become looked up to by New Agers as a man of occult wisdom, for he felt like a failure whom no one could love or look up to, because he was not a famous writer like his father; had no life partner; and was not tall with big muscles, bravado, and/or tattoos like his older brother.

So Mister Rand became a Tarot reader, and found he had a talent for seeing connections when stimulated by querent questions and the images on the Tarot cards. And so his reputation as a Tarot reader spread slowly throughout the community where he lived with his mother and brother. Suddenly he met the man who for two years would become the most important figure in his life: Mister Alex, named Stuart Lucker. Together they became a psychic team, first in Key West, Florida, then in Santa Fe, New Mexico. And from Mister Alex’s channelings as “Alexandra” came several life systems that Mister Rand hungrily adopted, for they gave his life meaning without demanding that he hate his innermost nature, as Fundamentalist Christianity had done.

After Mister Alex’s death, Mister Rand continued to explore the Tarot, and later, trance work or “channeling” as well; and within his superconscious created the aggregate information source he calls “The Family,” a source within his Greater Self that enables him to see connections not easily perceptible to his conscious mind. This mindset he has more or less maintained ever since.

But Mister Rand has always been plagued by doubts that his New Age beliefs might be no truer than the Christian beliefs or agnosticism he had previously espoused. Part of the reason for this is that Mister Rand is incarnated as the Essence we call Judgment, in which dualism, and in particular dualistic thinking, is enthroned mightily: I believe/I believe not; I am man/I am woman; I am good/I am evil; God is Love in all parts of Godself/God is a consuming fire; reality has purpose, with Love at the core of it/reality has no purpose, and all physical reality’s denizens are merely accidental meat machines. Another reason for Mister Rand’s doubtings is that as he has grown in experience he has, deep within himself, sensed a truth larger even than the truths channeled by his lover Alex and later by himself; that is, truths of a different order entirely and beyond what “The Family” as he thinks of us can express and perceive. For we are a construct merely, a tool for the transmission of insight already held within Mister Rand’s Greater Self, and within the Greater Selves of Mister Rand’s clients who seek “The Family’s” advice. So, just as when he left agnosticism for Fundamentalism, Fundamentalism for agnosticism, and agnosticism for spiritualism, Mister Rand, unknown to himself, has a longing for experience that he does not feel his current form of belief can support or legitimize. And so part of him doubts the teachings of “Alexandra” that have sustained him for so long.

And so faith and doubt are tools, even more than they are expressions of psychological bent or orientation; tools which the Greater Self uses to assist Mister Rand in creating life experience for himself. What form Mister Rand’s new tools will take we cannot say, except that Love is at the core of it; for his recent visions of Love, utterly without doctrinal or theological system to accompany them, have exerted a major influence upon Mister Rand’s soul.

And so, if you struggle with doubt, ask yourself, “What experience has faith not given me that I may be needing to leave my former faith in order to enjoy?” And we thank you for sharing.

— May 10, 2014. Channeled by Rand B. Lee. All rights reserved.

On Oneness and Loss: A Trance-Persona Talk by “The Family”

Mr. Rand has asked us why the Earth kills so many of its creatures on a daily basis. It it because the world is out of balance due to sins of humans and their first parents, Adam and Eve? Is it because the Earth is an accidental, unconscious mechanism that grinds up lesser, weaker beings in its cogs, leaving those best fit to survive long enough to reproduce meaninglessly? Is the anger of the Earth due to a Goddess Who has had enough of Man and his depredations? We do not see it in these ways. This is how we do see it. And as always, take what feels right and leave the rest.

Love & Pain
When Humanity first incarnated in physical reality, it entered the material plane from a level of reality Mr. Rand’s former partner called the plane of light and sound, and which some Buddhists term the heaven of light and sound. In that reality, information is shared via complete joining of the seeker and the sought, without fear of violation thereby.In that reality, there are no edges to confine or bruise, no violation possible, no pain as you may think of it.

But there is also no love as you think of it: no yearning; no sense of loss. For in physical reality the concept of love is inextricably intertwined with the concept of pain … in physical reality love very frequently appears to be (1) a consolation for pains suffered, or (2) a battery of empowerment to strengthen one against the possibility of pains yet to be suffered.

And we speak of pain of loss first and foremost. For it is loss — loss of physical connection; loss of physical health; loss of sense of connection to family; loss of sense of self — that love, in physical reality, is sought after in order to abrogate or mitigate or stave off.

Love in the Nonphysical Realities
In the nonphysical realities, love is a celebration or marveling of unique wholeness seen within a context of continuous interconnection and interdependency. For in the vast light reaches (as Mr. Rand has come to think of the plane of light and sound), beings perceive the oneness of everything and their unshakeable, unlosable place within it.

The Dreaming
When humanity decided to explore love and creativity in the context of material reality, it first expanded to the level of reality called the dreaming or the dreamtime or the dream state, wherein all varieties and possibilities of physical experience can be imagined and tried out in order to determine which experiences will be the most valuable for both the individuals entering physical existence and the group consciousness of humanity as a whole. And in all possible probability lines experimented with, the one that seemed most attractive to you was one in which beings from the plane of light and sound joined their light-bodies with the bodies of animals — the natives of physical reality — the better to experience physical reality directly, as material participants, rather than [as] observers merely.

And not all beings from the plane of light and sound agreed to this. They chose instead to experience physical reality as observers and spiritual guides to their incarnating fellows, as even your scriptures attest when they say, “We are surrounded with clouds of witness,” and, “These things the angels themselves desire to look into.”

The Merging
And so you merged your consciousness with a line of animals descended from four-footed, milk-giving mammals, and became first what your scientists have called Homo neanderthalensis of Neanderthal humans; and then after many millennia experiencing physical reality as Neanderthalers (or, as many such termed themselves, People of the Air or Wind), some of you elected to expand upon the capacities of [what] that life as Neanderthalers afforded you, and incarnated as cousins to the Neanderthals, Homo sapiens or Cro-Magnon humans.

We say “expand upon the capacities of the Neanderthals,” but Mr. Rand points out this suggests that the Neanderthals were in some way limited or inferior to the Cro-Magnons, and this is not the case, any more than an aardvark or a pongid is inferior to a whale or a cormorant. The Neanderthals were equipped with senses not possessed by Cro-Magnons or their modern human descendants, and the Cro-Magnon were equipped with capacities not possessed by the Neanderthalers: to be precise, a capacity to think of themselves as separate from their surroundings rather than part of them; an increased sexual and territorial drive; the ability to stay in sexual rut twelve months out of the year; and an advanced capacity for communicating verbally with one another.

Over time, you discovered that these capacities gave you more creative control over your environment than the capacities you had when you were Neanderthals, and therefore more ability to protect yourselves against the pain of loss (due to illness, death by wild beasts and disease, severed affiliations with communities, and so forth) that physical reality so keenly affords its denizens the possibility of experiencing. And so more and more of you incarnated as Homo sapiens. And so in time H. neanderthalensis died out, for the two species were, with only a few exceptions, incapable of crossbreeding.

Other Experiments
This was not the only experiment tried in physical reality by beings from the plane of light and sound. Many of you incarnated on worlds other than Earth, and on Earths whose histories, though parallel to yours, flowed differently from the history you know.

One of your science fiction writers has written several books in which a reality where Homo neanderthalensis never died out and Homo sapiens never evolved communicates with your universe. And it may be said that this writer is in part “remembering” a reality in which he himself is incarnated (or, as you would put it, has been incarnated or shall be incarnated, for all incarnatings appear simultaneous from the viewpoint of the plane of the broadest self).

And even on your Earth there were those of you who experimented with combining the DNA of Homo sapiens and Homo neanderthalensis with that of sentients not native to your Earth. As your scriptures attest, “The sons of God looked upon the daughters of men, and saw that they were fair.” But the products of such unions proved out of balance with the harmony of your world, as it is written in your scriptures, “And there were giants on the Earth in those days.” And so these attempts at hybridization were by and large failures. These efforts survive to your present age only in certain oddities of DNA that may not be understood for many of your years to come.

Hallucinogens and Human Creativity
Now Mr. Rand has recently read a book that suggests that about 35,000 of your years ago, H. sapiens itself underwent a great shift in [creative] ability and awareness as a result of experimentation with commonly available hallucinogenic botanicals or trance-inducing practices such as starvation and repetitive noisemaking and repetitive movements in dance. This books says that prior to about 35,000 years ago, there were no abstract artistic representations made by humans. Then, suddenly, decorative objects and artistic renderings sprang into existence all over the world, as far apart as Europe and Africa, created by groups with no conscious awareness of one another.

These arts consisted of deliberate cross-hatchings on stones or shells; part human, part animal figures on stones and cave walls; pictures of male and female figures pierced with sharp lines like spears; geometric designs; and animals. And the book Mr. Rand read suggested that this creativity explosion, which continues in an accelerating manner to the present day, was inculcated by other-dimensional beings seeking contact and interbreeding with modern humans, even as, many millennia ago, some beings from the plane of light and sound sought hybridization, rather than incarnation, with H. sapiens and the now extinct H. neanderthalensis.

In fact we see this as a slight misunderstanding of a situation not based in linear causality. That is, it is not the aliens, or extra-dimensional figures, that seek to contact and interbreed with humans today. It is humans who seek to connect with and rejoin their essences with the nonphysical realities, while maintaining human form and belief-systems. The projection of human motives onto aspects of the nonphysical can be seen everywhere in religions, from your so-called ancient times to your present day: god who act like jealous wives, husbands, lovers, and heirs or rivals to heavenly thrones; Divine Father figures who command humans to slaughter everyone they encounter who is not of their subgroup; even benevolent Mother-figures who are [depicted as] one moment suckling the Divine Babe at their breasts and the next, brandishing swords of holy conquest as La Conquistadora. For one thing the book Mr. Rand has read does not take into account is the power of human fear to manifest menacing or threatening imagery when encountering those events or experiences that do not match prior mindsets.

The Power of Fear
The threatening probing aliens of the Close Encounter visions, the cackling hags of medieval witch-phobia, the jackal-headed Egyptian death-gods, the threatening therianthropes or black cylinders of DMT visions, all these are projections (as we see it) upon the ineffable of human fear of otherness: in short, xenophobia. And perhaps you have forgotten how strong a part xenophobia has always played in the history of your species.

So we see these visionary experiences of abduction and sexual experimentation and torture and seduction and such as human projections of human fears onto attempts by humans to become conscious of their “families” in the plane of light and sound, which was and is the first human home. For grief at separation is a much-available experience in physical reality.

Mr. Rand has for many years felt great grief at [having been] separated physically from the being he knew as his younger brother, Jeffrey Robert. This being introduced him to the concept of channeling, through Jeffrey’s involvement with, and inspiration by, the Jane Roberts “Seth” materials, which Jeffrey read in the 1980s when he was still incarnated in physical reality as Rand’s younger brother. So when Jeffrey died through the passageway of what is called AIDS, Mr. Rand felt a great separation, not only from his brother, of whom he was jealous and envious and inspired and toward whom he felt great affection, but also from an aspect of his own spirituality that had begun to emerge in his prior years as a fundamentalist Christian, a religion which Mr. Rand had left behind by the time of Mr. Jeffrey’s transition.

Not Lost
For Mr. Jeffrey is not lost, except to physical touch and hearing and smell and taste. He exists still, in a larger form than he possessed in physical reality, and meets with Mr. Rand in the dream state — though too often such meetings cannot be remembered by Mr. Rand upon waking because they would feel too painful for him in his present mindset of attachment to loss.

And that is another experience available in physical reality: the identification of the self not with those persons and opportunities presently available for concourse and intercommunication and mutual creation, but with those persons and opportunities no longer apparently available for such. And such attachments can result in a kind of addiction to waiting for death, which in extreme cases can cause an individual to actively seek physical cessation of life, but more commonly is experienced by individuals as a great difficulty in initiating, or following through on, new relationships and creative projects.

Alone

For no creature born of the plane of light and sound is meant to be alone, to which even your scriptures attest when they say, “And the LORD saw that it was not good for the man to be alone, and so He created a helper suitable for him.” And though your religions have called that suitable helper “the woman,” or havvah, which being translated into English means “living” and transliterated into English is pronounced “Eve,” [that suitable helper] was never intended to refer to a physical female at all, any more than “Adam” — which in Hebrew is “adamah” or “of the red earth” — was intended to refer to a physical male. For Adam and Eve were meant to refer to both aspects of the human nature in physical reality: the Namer and the Nurturer. And if one of these aspects is not recognized, fed, or given opportunities for self-expression, a human being incarnated in physical reality will feel incomplete, unsatisfied, and half-alive.

The Namer and the Nurturer

The naming and nurturing aspects of the human being are important to understand, for in a way the equivalents of such aspects are also experienced by you on the plane of light and sound, and are an intrinsic aspect of your nature as sovereign creative entities.

As we have said, and many have pointed out in religious, ethical, and psychotherapeutic writings over the centuries, physical reality is a place where many different kinds of pain may be experienced on a daily basis. When we began this discourse it was in response to Mr. Rand’s question, “Why does physical reality slay its inhabitants on a daily basis?”, which put another way can be understood to mean, “Why is there so much pain in physical reality?”

And it is our observation and our theory, which any are free to abandon or ignore as they see fit, that the potential for pain, which comes from overload of certain intense physical and psychological experiences, is at root the potential for separation or a sense of separation. And though much of the time it appears to the sufferer in physical reality that such separation is separation from loved ones who have died, or physical nurturance such as food and water and positive touch, at root such separation is from the naming and nurturing aspects of the … Self: the Higher Self, Broadest Self, Higher Power, God-Self, Christ-consciousness, light body, or whatever you may choose to call it … [which can give] the [incarnated] self opportunities for unfettered experience of oneness in physical reality.

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For the naming or Adamic aspect of the self, which term is taken from your scriptures’ injunction to the mythic first man to name all the animals in Eden, is the aspect of the self that experiments with different possibilities for creativity and self-expression. [It is the aspect of the self] which looks at one probability-line or experience in the dream state and says, “This is what I want to experience. This is [whom] I would like to experience myself as being. This, too, is an expression of I AM-ness.” For all the names we give to others are names we give ourselves.

And the nurturing aspect of the self, which term is taken from your scriptures’ description of the mythic first woman as the “suitable helper” for Adam, refers to the aspect of the self which has the power to actualize in physical reality the creative choices of the naming aspect of the self — to actually do, in space-time terms, the will of the Greater or Higher or Broadest Self in physical reality during a given incarnation of that Self. And clearly for complete creativity in physical reality, both the Namer and the Nurturer must work together inside the self: the first, to identify opportunities for the self’s expression and creativity; and the second, to lay hold of tools available in physical reality to … give those opportunities flesh and blood expression.

Now we reiterate that the Namer, or Adamic aspect of the Self, and the Nurturer, or Evenic aspect of the Self, have nothing to do with maleness in a sexual sense and femaleness in a sexual sense, in that human men are not more intrinsically namers than human women are intrinsically nurturers. For the be happy, human men and women must express and satisfy both their Namer aspects and their Nurturer aspects. And that is what is experienced as “lost” when Physical Reality appears to separate a being from happiness and joy.

Mr. Rand’s “loss” of his brother Jeffrey is real in the sense that he and Jeffrey can no longer physically embrace. But the true loss is the apparent separation between Mr. Rand and his Namer and Nurturer aspects. For when Jeffrey was alive, Mr. Rand could look at him and himself and say, “This one and I are one. We mirror ourselves back to ourselves. We bear the same Name.” That is, “We share a purpose and a path. And we support one another in that path” — a reference to the Self’s Nurturer aspect. For when a person says, “He supports my path,” what she really at root is saying is, “He supports me in supporting myself on my path.” For support, though it may take the form of paying rent for someone, or handing them food or medicine, can have no nurturing effect unless the individual takes the support inside him or herself and uses it to strengthen him or herself sufficiently to begin providing support for self and others on one’s own.

And we thank you for sharing.